Things I want you to know.

That you're important to me.
That sometimes thinking is under rated.
A hug may not change anything except for my ability to deal with whatever it is that's happening.
That feelings do matter.
Silence isn't so bad after all.
Rainbows appear after the storm but you have to look up to see them.
Dancing is so much fun.
Sometimes thinking is over rated.
Books are meant to be shared, the better the book, the more you should share it.
Words aren't enough.
Life is easier when it's not revolving around fulfilling my own needs.

Failing

I failed at the age of 25 and it's been the best thing that I've ever done.

When I was younger I never could comprehend past the age of 25. I had no idea what life would hold beyond that. I guess because I figured that by the time I was 25 I'd have achieved all that was achievable and the rest of my life would be spent living out that success and building on it. I thought uni degree, husband, house and kids would all be mine at the age of 25. I don't have any of those things and that's OK.

Really it is because now the adventure has started.I'm in unknown territory. I failed at being a 'success' so now I can do whatever it is that I want to do. There's no expectations except that which I place on myself.

I've got a feeling that the adventures have already begun. That ending up in youth work wasn't a mistake. That falling in love with these kids wasn't a co-incidence. That maybe the very reason that I had to 'fail' was so that I could see these kids and succeed in fighting for them. Because even though I think my life sucks, it's nothing compared with what they've got to deal with.

Life Changing...

 A boy from work rocked up at my house on Friday afternoon. It's scary when work follows you home in the form of a teenage boy. I was reminded at this point that my work is more then just work. I may get paid for what I do but these kids can't be contained within the hours I write down on my time sheet. Changing lives means that my life also has to change.

Sit. Stay. Talk to me for a while cause lately things have been rather intense. I know that things are always intense in my world but lately I've wanted to spend more time with the grown ups. With people of thought and intelligence. With people who have minds that explore and dream of things bigger then themselves. Who talk of solutions not problems, who see the future beyond the past, who know that life is more then just not being dead.
So please. Sit. Stay. Spend some time here with me.

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In heaven I hope there's:

1. A soundtrack. At the very least I think we should all get a small choir of angels to follow us around making music according to the current mood. How much cooler are movies because of the music? I know that the closet we get to sound tracks in real life are iPods and boom boxes but really in the next life I hope the sound track is for real.
2. No such thing as bad coffee. It amazes me that people make bad coffee. It's not that hard to make good coffee if you're willing to learn. Heaven should have no bad coffee.
3. Great parties. With great music to dance to.
4. BIG kitchens to cook in. Even though we may not have to eat to remain alive I hope that we can at least choose to eat. I love food. And I love cooking so I hope I get to have a least one really massive dinner party.
5. Butterflies and birds that land on your hand when you hold it out. I love it in Disney films how all the princesses manage to have birds come and rest on their hands. I want that.
6. NO CLEANING. seriously. none. Especially not toilet cleaning.
7. Scooters for everyone. Too many people miss out on the joy of owning and riding their own scooter. I'm pretty sure that when Jesus prepares the houses for us he's also preparing transportation. Now in heaven we might be able to fly but...scooters are fun. Really fun.